This afternoon I asked you, don't you feel that we're like friend more than couple? Then you replied, you lost th feeling. That time I really felt terrible and super sad ! I don't know what to do, I just keep on crying and crying .. Even I'm very tired but I can't fall asleep, I waited for your reply for so long, you just reply me a few words .. Sigh .. You lost th feeling from me, is it my wrong ? My attitude makes you felt boring is it ? Then why when I asked you, is it th time I have to let you go ? But you said don't know .. WHY ?! Everytime I'm very serious in our relationship problems, you just know how to answer me "don't know". You don't face th truth then it doesn't mean that you forever don't have to face it ! Today you said you lost feeling from me, maybe tomorrow you will say other words that more hurt than this ? Why you don't want to tell me what you want ? Is it very hard to say it out ? Or you scared that you will hurt me ? Don't you know that you keep everything in your heart and don't say it out, it will hurt me more .. Because I don't even know what you want . What do you want from me ? Th five words from my mouth ? If you want me to say it, you can tell me also. As long as you will happy, I willing to do anything just to make you happy .. I know, I know you together with me your life become very hard and you're not happy at all .. But you should know that I'm not bear to let this relationship to go . I love you very much, I believe that you know too.

I'm now sitting in front of my laptop and updating my blog .. Having exam recently, but I doesn't really care about it . But, I'm seriously so stressful now! Not because of school or family problem but relationship .. How to remain a good and happy's relationship with a guy that doesn't want to say everything out and keep it inside his heart ? Yes, I admitted that I have wrong too. Not because I lie to him or what, is I keep on doing th same mistake that he doesn't like .. I've tried so many times to change and makes him more happier, but I'm still very useless . Last night he asked me, don't you think our love already different ? I replied, I felt it a very long time ago le. And then, we remain silent and treat like nothing happened . I ask myself, this is what you want ? Being silent and do nothing is what you want ? Sigh .. I don't know, I really don't know. I think we're just like best friends more than couple, we know each other well but when we talk about our relationship's stuff, th first thing you do is remain silent and I'm th one who's complaining .. So, from now on, I also have to learn to being silent and not to complain anything . Lastly, I'm tired already ..  \(ˋ＾ˊ)/